Garret and I broke-up today.
Because of a shit ton of things.
But the thing is that we didn't even WANT to break-up...
we just did.
We were completely in love with each other...
in fact... we will are.. i think...
well I still love him... deeply
The same way how I still love (R.I.P)
But Garret and I completely just... understood each other.
We had similar pasts and similar interests and similar lives and idk.. we just connected so great.
but long-distance relationships.. they just break hearts.
between financial issues, and trying to make plans to see each other that would never work... that's one reason why our relationship was destined to end.
and that's only the first part of the story.
Garret is moving to Portland, Oregon in January.
and remember... I live in New Jersey/Pennsylvania...
how would that even work?
not to mention that I still have another 2 years of school left... we wouldn't be able to live with each other until I graduate, and who says that I'll even end up in Portland? I guess I could go, but now that we aren't together, there's even less of a chance that I would. and since 2 years is such a long time from now, I don't know what would happen between then and now..
like.. what if he found someone new and I'm still in love with him? or what if I found someone new and he is still in love with me?
I don't know what to do anymore...
I just want to give up on relationships forever and remain forever alone.
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